Passing hours
And fading years,
Broken hearts
And falling tears.
Crying child
And worried friends;
All the people
Fear the end.
Fallen suns
And waning moons,
Frightened men
And certain dooms.
Shattered glass
And lost gems;
All the people
Fear the end.
Do not ask her
Why she is crying,
For if you knew,
Then you would cry, too.
Do not ask her
How to fix this,
For she does not know,
What to do or where to go.
Do not ask her
What is broken inside,
For her friend says
To pick up the pieces.
Do not ask her
What she has to say,
For her voice is faded,
And she wants to be dead.
Do not ask her
Where the blood flows, red,
For her strength is not enough,
And her heart cannot hold love.
The universe turns
And deals its painful blows.
It tears you down,
But you stand up again,
And with tears in your eyes,
You make sure she knows.
She knows you still love her
Even though you're far away.
She knows you still love her,
Though you can't tell her every day.
Time passes steadily,
And it hurts, but you're tough.
Days, months, hours, years,
Fade away and pass you by.
The clock's chime stings,
Because a thousand days isn't enough.
But she knows you still love her
Even though she's far away.
She knows you still love her,
Though you can't show her every day.
Soft wings tickle inside;
A shimmer, a sparkle
Of life, as my stomach turns.
They dance on,
Up, down, all around.
Butterflies, in a warm sack,
Brave butterflies,
Dancing over certain death.
The come within a hair of fatality,
But never get ensared,
And refuse to leave.
Removed from all around me
I stand, detached.
Choosing to remain outside,
I am detached.
I am detached
From fear, hate, and pain.
I stand, detached,
And remain numb inside.
Keeping clear of connections,
I stay detached.
Despite my own emotions,
I remain detached.
I remain detached;
I am untouchable here.
I stay detached,
And I'm numb inside.
Isn't it sad,
What we've come to,
When even little children
Know how to have sex,
But nobody can tell you
What it means to make love?
Isn't sad when we've come so far
As to call each other's music,
Each other's games, and passions
"Satanic," or "ungodly,"
When in reality,
There's nothing more godless
Than the wars we wage?
Isn't it sad that we live in a world
Where we choose to be cruel
And get upset when people
Don't like us all that much?
Isn't it sad that high school students
Suffer from enough anxiety
That, sixty years ago,
Would be enough to be housed
In an asylum?
Isn't it sad that we lash out
Against the stereotypes,
Yet we continue to live up to them?
Isn't it sad that in this world,
We think it's acceptable
To act like a dick
Just because you have one
Or because you want some?
Isn't it sad that our mouths,
The same ones we use to kiss,
Are so foul, they could cause
Milk to go sour and flowers to die?
Isn't it sad that we scream about
How we are unloved,
Even if it's our own damn fault
That we're unlovable?
Isn't it sad that what once was sacred
Is treated as a joke, as a game?
Isn't it sad that all we want is acceptance,
But we refuse to step back
And see if we are acceptable?
Isn't it sad that hate is easy,
But so few understand
What love really means?
Isn't it sad that the great ones,
The dreamers, the fighters,
Are dragged out of the sky
Rather than supported?
Isn't it sad that where we come from
Is more important than who we are,
Because of the color of our skin,
Or the sound of our voice?
Isn't it sad that our parents
Tried so hard to raise us right,
When, as soon as we leave the nest,
We tear out others' feathers
And have to fight to keep our own?
Isn't it sad that we lie
We cheat, and we steal,
Then blame those who protect us?
Isn't it sad that we get a trophy,
Just for participating,
And then wonder where motivation went?
Isn't it sad that red stains the grass,
When it doesn't take much
To cease our fire?
Isn't it sad, the world we're in,
Where we must clean the mess?
Isn't it sad that we tell ourselves
We must agree with someone to accept them,
And we must agree with them
In order to understand?
Isn't it sad, how many of us cry
Ourselves to sleep, because of words?
Isn't it sad that we all claim to see it,
And so few of us speak out?
I'm sorry:
For what I said,
For what I did,
For how I acted,
For lashing out.
I'm sorry for all that happens
When I'm hungry,
When I'm sick,
When I'm tired,
When I'm hurt.
I'm sorry for the pain I caused
And the worry in your mind.
I'm sorry,
For being weak,
For being lesser,
For being imperfect.
I'm sorry.
I beg you now,
Don't forget me.
Don't forget the sound of my voice,
The scent of my hair,
The soul beneath my eyes.
Don't forget me.
Don't forget the strength of my hands
Or the gentleness of my touch.
Don't forget the tears I've shed,
Or the pain I've felt.
Don't forget the words I spoke,
The stories I've told.
Don't forget me.
Don't forget my legacy,
My promises, my advice.
Don't forget "Me,"
I beg you now.
I can dance,
But only if the music is right,
And if you're strong enough to hold me.
I can dance,
But only when my soul opens,
And when the earth sings sweet.
I can dance,
But only if the rhythm is smooth,
And if you guide my steps.
I can dance,
But only when my pulse comes alive,
And when the moon sails proud.
If I cry and let you watch,
Remember that I'm trusting you
Because I don't expose myself.
If I cry and you see me,
Remember that I am not weak;
I am broken, and that's different.
If I cry and don't push you away,
Remember that my soul is bare
And I'm letting you hold it.
If I cry and let you clutch me close,
Remember that I need you now,
For I cannot ask for help.
If I cry,
Remember what you see,
Because I don't expose myself easily.
With a rustle, you passed by,
And I watched, breathless,
My heart pounding inside.
Your actions were precise, smooth,
And I watched, breathless,
Stunned by how you moved.
You spoke to me then,
And I listened, breathless,
Longing for your words to never end.
Your voice rang, and it carried,
While I listened, breathless,
Filled with longing and greed.
Gently, you reached out to me,
And I held, breathless,
Your hand, and I was pleased.
Strongly, I clutched tight
Your hand, and, breathless,
I watched, as you faded into night.
I am running
Through icy winds
And burning sands.
I am running
Through stormy skies
And churning seas.
I am running
Through crowds of men
And fields of grass.
I am running
Through passing times
And waning moons.
I am running
From what we've done
And what we've said.
I am running
From creeping lies
And endless pain.
I am running
From broken hearts
And shattered minds.
I am running
From passing times
And waning moons.
I am running
To sunny hills
And flowing streams.
I am running
To singing souls
And growing love.
I am running
To open arms
And your kind voice.
I am running
To passing times
And waning moons.
Hey.
Turn around.
Look down.
I'm here,
Here for you.
If you call for me,
I will come running to you,
But I can't chase you.
I'm too tired,
Too sick,
And too weak
For the chase.
My heart breaks,
And my body aches,
And I'm not fast enough
To chase you.
My bones have broken,
My muscles weakened,
And I'm in too much pain
To chase you.
So if you whistle,
Call my name,
I will come running
As fast as I can.
But you'll have to wait awhile,
Because I can't chase.
A poem is a soul,
Written in verse.
With rhyme, and without,
The patterns of words
Echo the patterns of my heart.
Rhythmic patterns,
Simple or not,
Echo those of "me,"
They expose all parts
Of a young human being.
My poems are my soul,
Written in verse.
Patterns, free like my thinking,
Are the window in
To my soul, exposed, naked.
If I let you see
Deep into me,
Then keep my secrets,
Remember my words.
I caught my soul, and I wrote it in verse.
All I want is a single taste.
A taste of love is all I ask.
Set heartbreak and pain aside;
Even true passion can be denied.
Give me a taste, before my hours have passed.
I only ask for a little,
Tiny taste of love,
Give my heart to digest
That which my mind protests;
A taste is enough.
A taste of love is not enough
To cause us pain or break our hearts.
Please, I'm not asking much,
I want, just once, to touch
The love that leaves me in the dark.
So just this once,
Won't you give me a taste?
Give me a taste of love--
A taste is enough--
Or wait until my soul breaks.
Hey there, God,
If You're up there.
If You're listening.
I'm lost and confused.
I don't know where to go
Or what to do.
Can You help me?
I'm hurting.
I'm scared.
I don't understand.
The night goes on
As far as I can see.
I'm tired,
So tired.
I don't know how long I can go.
Hey there, God.
Don't You love me anymore?
Why'd you do this?
I don't understand.
Did I do something wrong?
Please tell me
Why it's so dark
And why I'm alone.
I'm scared,
I'm in pain,
And I'm praying.
Please answer soon.
Love,
Me.
Time flew by,
The turn of the clock
Both agonizingly slow
And painfully fast.
Years passed,
Years you couldn't have,
Years you couldn't share.
But, eventually, she came.
She came, you held her,
Wrapped her up, breathed her in,
And your soul cried,
Tears of deep sorrow,
And thrilling ecstasy.
Her small body:
Too much to handle,
Not enough to satisfy,
But totally just right.
You danced, played, and sung.
With sweet happiness in your soul.
With bitter tears and tight jaw,
You said your goodbyes.
Now you mourn,
When you should rejoice,
Because she came.
Because she came,
You have hope.
She came,
And she will again find you,
Or you will find her.
Until then, carry her with you.
Be happy: she came.
As time goes on,
We throw away our used toys
Without thinking, without wondering,
How does the toy feel?
Do they feel upset, angry, or hurt
When they are replaced?
As life goes on, we realize,
That we are the toy.
We are played with,
Loved,
And then,
In a moment,
We are replaced.
Left on a curb
Like trash,
We are unwanted,
For we've been replaced.
And we sit.
We sit in the cold,
In the rain,
In the wind.
We sit.
And we wonder
If we weren't good enough.
We wonder
If we were too big
Too small
Too loud
Too quiet
Too rough
Too gentle
Too kind
Or not kind enough.
We wonder
Why we were replaced.
Oh, it hurts.
We hurt inside.
But eventually we are picked up.
We are dusted off.
We are loved.
We are healed.
And maybe, this time,
We won't be
Replaced.
While time goes on,
We throw away our used toys.
But how do they feel
Once they know
They've been replaced?
Little child, come to me.
I see your family,
Tearing itself apart.
Little child, cry on me.
I see it breaking
Your innocent heart.
Little child, lean on me.
You tried so hard,
But then you shattered.
Little child, follow me.
I won't let you say
You never mattered.
Little child, cling to me.
I know you're hurting,
Very deep inside.
Little child, listen to me.
I'll help you learn
Why they all lied.
Little child, come to me.
I see your family,
Tearing itself apart.
Little child, cry on me.
I see it breaking
Your innocent heart.
Sadness is a very human emotion.
It shapes who we are,
By biting, stinging,
And by, slowly, surely,
Day by day,
Month by month,
Year by year,
Eroding our core,
Until our strength wears thin.
It defines who we are,
Through our loss,
Through our pain.
And it is real.
Sadness is real.
Anyone who says otherwise
Is not human,
For sadness connects us.
We may not all find love,
Or joy,
But we all feel sadness;
Sorrow, grief, mourning, regret--
Sadness has many names.
But its almost tender fingers
Touch all of us:
Brush against every human heart.
You see it in our eyes
And in our weary souls.
Black night skies,
Sweet peace,
As I listen to the rainfall.
The turmoil inside
Brings up tears,
That escape,
Like the rainfall.
Deep darkness,
Taste of petrichor,
Drumming a rhythm,
To put me to sleep,
With the sound of the rainfall.
Hey there, Wolf.
Come closer, Wolf.
Wolf, hunter, leader,
Come to me,
Rest by my side.
Mighty Wolf,
Won't you be mine?
Run alongside me,
Fight at my back,
With your strong body,
And your keen mind.
Hey there, Wolf.
Come closer,
Rest here, now,
Pressed beside me,
And keep me warm,
Keep me safe.
Come here, my Wolf,
And I will run with you.
Part I
I love you for your laugh,
For your smile,
And for your humor.
I love you for your loyalty,
For your strength,
And for your companionship.
But most of all,
I love you for who you are.
I love you for your tears,
For your tenderness,
And for your heart.
I love you for your courage,
For your valiant soul,
And for your iron will.
But most of all,
I love you for who you are.
I love you for your cleverness,
For your intelligence,
And for your wit.
I love you for your protectiveness,
For your honesty,
And for your gentleness.
But most of all,
I love you for who you are.
Part II
Who are you?
My ally,
My friend,
My comrade.
You are:
My wingman,
My right hand,
My battle buddy.
You are the one who has my back,
The one who watches over me,
The one who's there when I need you.
And I love you,
Because that is who you are.
"I love you," she whispered,
As she watched him on the field.
"I love you," she thought,
When he scored the winning goal.
"I love you," she smiled,
When he asked her to the dance.
"I love you," she laughed,
As he kissed her, on the stage.
"I love you," she cried,
When he bent down on one knee.
"I love you," she rejoiced,
After they both said "I do."
"I love you," she told him,
As they had their wedding night.
"I love you," she grinned,
When the doctor confirmed their hope.
"I love you," she screamed,
As she watched him fly away.
"I love you," she whispered,
As she read his loving letters.
"I love you," she mourned,
When the news came to her door.
"I love you," she cried,
As she clutched his noble flag.
"I love you," she whispered,
As she stroked her swollen belly.
"I love you," she laughed,
When her boy's eyes showed joy.
"I love you," she thought,
As his duplicate grew strong.
"I love you," she said,
When her hands were pale and weak.
"I love you," she knew,
As she herself came to rest.
"I love you, and now I'm by your side once more."
She wanted to leave,
But she stayed.
She stayed for her sisters,
Her closest friends,
Who became her family.
Having lost herself,
Amidst hell's fire,
Never giving up,
Never letting go,
After her fight, she became strong,
Having won her victory.
In days of darkness,
She stayed,
To be there for family.
All was lost,
Yet,
Ever fighting,
Deep in blood.
Far was her journey,
Often painful,
Rivers of tears flow down.
Yet she stayed.
On she fought,
Until victory was hers.
She wanted to leave,
But she stayed.
She stayed for her sisters,
Her closest friends,
Who became her family.
Don't look at me,
For the person before you
Is not the one you want to see.
The person that I am
And the person the world wants me to be
Are very different.
One is real, broken, strong.
The other conforms
To society's demands.
Surprise,
I'm not perfect.
I have cracks in my soul,
And my heart is in pieces.
If you look,
You'll see who I am.
I am real,
I am real.
I have loved;
I have lost.
I know how it feels to stand,
Only to fall,
Again and again.
I know how it feels
To cry yourself to sleep.
I know how it feels
To watch your world crumble.
I know how to pick up the pieces,
I know how to save myself.
I know how to help you do the same.
For I am real,
I am alive,
I am raw and uncut.
I have been to Hell and back.
Forged in dragons' fire,
I am a tempered steel blade.
I have been forged, reforged,
And forged again.
The only way to make a diamond perfect
Is to cut it.
And I am real.
I will not fake who I am.
I will choose how much to show you.
But I am,
And always will be,
Real.
I am real.
Don't fall in love,
If you value your joy.
Don't even think about it.
Don't fall in love
With anyone, or anything.
Fall in love with a dog;
Dogs die, we move on.
Fall in love with a cat;
Cats die, we move on.
Fall in love with a human;
You're stuck now, sorry.
Humans beat you and break you
And hurt you and fake you,
All in the name of "love."
Don't fall in love,
Because then you can't move on.
Time claims all,
And as the clocks tick
The dreams fall apart and
We grow weary and sick.
Love is a lie,
So don't fall in.
It's simply the same old story,
Told a thousand times again.
Don't fall in love,
It's a cruel game,
And Fate, the dealer,
Has notoriety, not fame.
Gamble your everything,
If you wish.
But don't put my heart up
On the table.
Don't fall in love;
Maybe you listened,
Maybe not.
Don't fall in love,
It's a tightening noose-knot.
Life shattered her,
Beat her,
Broke her,
But she couldn't cry.
In silence,
She walked through Hell,
And she couldn't cry.
With blood on her hands--
Her own crimson dye--
She held on to all she had left,
Yet she couldn't cry.
The agony as she fought
Wasn't enough,
To make her shed a tear,
For she couldn't cry.
She'd had her fair share;
She took the beatings;
She faced Life head-on;
Still, she couldn't cry.
I'm a hundred years late,
A hundred years late for you.
I could've been there,
But I was a hundred years late.
The turn of the century
Marks my last hour,
For I'm a hundred years late.
Too slow, all alone,
I'd wait for you forever,
But I'm already a hundred years late.
It felt like the blink of an eye,
A mere moment, lost in time.
Yet I'm a hundred years late.
I was never perfect;
And I wasted my time,
So I'm a hundred years late.
For me it's just beginning,
And for you it's already gone
Because I was a hundred years late.
Burning ball of gas,
A billion miles away,
How could you grant my wish?
Hydrogen, splitting,
A cosmic ball of heat.
You're already a hundred years
Past your expiration date.
I'm a hundred years late
To make a wish.
Wipe a tear, feel its kiss.
Atoms ripping,
Burning light.
How could you grant my wish
From a billion miles away?
Ever lonely will I be,
As the earth turns 'round and 'round.
I'll be by myself, just little me,
Until I'm six feet under ground.
Ever lonely will I be;
I see these couples holding hands.
The years in which I'm lonély*
Are as countless as the sands.
Ever lonely will I be,
Perhaps it's my own fault--
I'm no attractive beauty**,
And I'm bittersweet like salt.
Ever lonely will I be,
Everyone can look and see,
It'll only be cute little me,
And my lack of beauty.
*Read: Lone-eh-lee
**Read: Bee-you-tee
Don't think her weak--
She's broken inside,
And she has been, for a long time;
Just now you're seeing:
She's letting you watch, watch her;
Watch her as she bleeds out,
On the cold hard ground.
Don't think her weak,
When she finally shatters.
Don't think her weak,
When her willpower's gone.
Don't think her weak,
As she falls down hard.
Don't think her weak,
For she stood too long.
Don't think her weak--
Her strength merely falters.
When her world came down,
She stood, tall, proud, strong.
When her everything crumbled,
She did not.
Don't think her weak.
Images, faint,
Through blurred eyes.
Stinging rage,
Or sorrow inside?
Both, perhaps,
Pain evermore.
Race away,
And lock the door.
Blurred eyes,
Sweet salty tears,
How can you haunt
One with so few years?
Don't let them fall,
Don't make a sound.
Oops, too late.
I broke, I hit the ground.
Hello, old friends.
Tears in the night--
I knew you'd come back.
And here you are,
Blurring my sight.
Ah! My scars weren't closed,
Though I hoped they would be.
Old friends, you're cool,
As you slide down my face;
I wondered when next you'd visit me.
Sweet taste of salt,
When you brush my lips.
I'm surprised I missed you,
Old friends, say hello,
While I crumble to bits.
This crazy roller-coaster ride,
Up, and down, and all around,
Don't wake me up.
Don't take me back.
You, and I,
Free in this dream-world.
Please don't wake me up.
Perfection impossible--
Yet here it is--
Pinch me,
But don't wake me up.
It can't be real,
Elation while I live through Hell,
Don't wake me up.
Let me keep my dream
Till dawn's soft fingers
Stir me from my rest.
Don't wake me up.
(Dedicated to Wizard101 friends)
There you are,
Far away.
Time zones,
Gaps in our lives.
Yet
Here you are.
What a small world.
Age of internet,
Wires, satellites, broadband.
We made it a small world.
Take it all,
Connect us all,
And somehow
We care for one another.
Though we never touched,
Never heard one another,
Except through text on-screen,
And maybe a video call.
We made this huge world
Into our own small world.
(For my mom, who had a hysterectomy due to many problems)
There was something inside,
Killing you,
Slowly, over many years.
But still you persisted,
You fought.
But the time ran out,
And you couldn't fight anymore.
The doctor saved your life,
But he took away something else.
Don't you worry;
No more children will gain life in your womb,
But the ones you already had
Are still here.
You're still a mother,
And maybe there's a child,
Somewhere, from a different womb,
That needs the love of your heart.
The love, which has nurtured five,
Five tough, clever babies.
Don't forget them.
Don't forget.
You're still a mother.
Raindrops on hollyhocks,
And flashes of lightning,
Coupled with sheets of rain;
Some say it's frightening.
Take a look and see,
The sights of a sweet summer storm.
Crackles of thunder,
And large raindrops pounding,
Chirps of the birds seeking shelter;
Splashes of the puddles surrounding.
Open your ear and hear,
The sounds of a sweet summer storm.
Breathe fresh, clean air,
And petrichor--Rain on the dust,
Flowers who've now opened,
The dog races in, carrying his heavy musk.
Take a deep breath and smell,
The scents of a sweet summer storm.
Rain-flavored raspberries,
And air, freshly cleaned,
Rainwater running down your face,
And more, all unseen.
Open your mouth and taste,
Flavors of a sweet summer storm.
Slight sting of a heavy drop,
And the cling of your clothes,
A chilled, new breeze,
And the wet grass on your toes.
Reach out your hand and feel,
The touch of a sweet summer storm.
I dreamed a dream,
That spoke my heart's desire.
I dreamed a dream,
Filled with my passion's fire.
I dreamed a dream;
My head is such a liar.
I dreamed a dream,
A dream of love and light,
I dreamed a dream,
Where demons couldn't bite.
I dreamed a dream,
But it left me in the night.
For it was just a dream,
Just a dream.
I dreamed a dream,
My friend, yes, you were there.
I dreamed a dream,
And I will stand and stare.
I dreamed this dream,
On my heart's crazy dare.
I dreamed a dream,
Where I had found a home.
I dreamed a dream,
That I can call my own.
I dreamed a dream,
And I wasn't so alone.
But it was just a dream,
Just a dream.
I dreamed a dream,
That pulled me from this living Hell.
I dreamed a dream,
Whose secrets I can't tell.
I dreamed a dream,
Where I heard a ringing bell.
I dreamed a dream,
Where you loved me true.
I dreamed a dream,
Where I had life anew,
I dreamed a dream,
But now, where are you?
For it was just a dream,
Just a dream.
If you don't like me,
That's o-kay,
'Cause I don't like "me" either.
I'm loud and sad
And crazy mad
All at the same time.
I wallow in depression,
Plagued by anxiety.
Top it off with OCD
(And I think I might have ADD!)
If you don't like me,
That's just fine!
If you do,
Just give me time.
I'll tick you off
(Like I did everybody else)
And then you'll wonder
Why you kept me around.
I don't mean to do it,
I swear on my life!
It just kinda happens,
And I only bring strife.
So if you don't like me,
I'll forgive you.
Because I don't even like "me"
I promise, it's true.
It would be easy,
I thought,
In the pool.
One breath
Could bring quiet death.
But I didn't;
It'd tear you apart,
And I couldn't hurt you--
I'd break my own heart.
It would be quick,
I thought,
Leaning over the edge.
One crack
And I'd never come back.
But I didn't;
I thought of how you'd cry.
And I couldn't hurt you--
It'd be worse than if I died.
It would be simple,
I thought,
A blade in my hand.
One swift slice,
So smooth and nice.
But I didn't;
I knew you'd finally fall,
And I couldn't hurt you--
Not like that at all.
My thundering angel,
From the heavens you dive,
With your wings like lightning,
Bringing you to my side.
With a crack that shakes the earth,
You slay my enemies,
And I am here beside you;
We make the best team.
My thundering angel,
Shaking earth and sky,
We'll conquer this world,
Together, you and I.
Though you're far away,
It feels as if you're near.
Oh, my thundering angel,
How I wish you were here.
Separated by an hour,
And miles of meter sticks,
My silly heart has succumbed
To your clever tricks.
My thundering angel,
You can be so frightening.
But I need you dearly,
So come on wings of lightning.
Welcome to my universe,
Where dragons fly and angels glide.
Welcome to my universe,
Where you can reach and touch the sky.
Welcome to my universe,
Where hearts beat fast in tender love.
Welcome to my universe,
Where peace rules gently as a dove.
Welcome to my universe,
Where everything loves little me.
Welcome to my universe,
Where, to hide, I swiftly flee.
Welcome to my universe,
Where I can run, from the dark.
Welcome to my universe,
Where I can heal my broken heart.
If I loved you yesterday,
I will love you tomorrow,
I will love you today,
And I'll love you for all the days after.
If I loved you once,
I will love you always,
Even if you kick me,
Beat me,
Break my heart.
Because my love is for yesterday,
My love is for tomorrow,
My love is for today,
And my love is for all the days after.
My love is for ever,
My love is for always,
My love is for No Matter What.
If I loved you yesterday,
And you killed me today,
I will love you tomorrow,
Because my love is a promise.
My love is rare,
And once you have it,
It will stay with you.
If I loved you yesterday,
And you changed,
I will love the one you were,
And the new you just the same.
If I loved you yesterday,
I will love you today,
And I will love you for all the tomorrows after.
If I loved you yesterday,
I will love you forever.
A million poems,
In rhythm, in verse.
To me they're a soul,
And to you, only words.
A message for someone,
Trying to push through.
But they're only words,
Though I write them for you.
Can't a poem hold power,
When there's love behind?
Yet for you, only words.
Am I wasting my time?
A million poems,
To you only words,
But I captured my soul,
And I wrote it in verse.
Call me a poet,
And I'll write you a poem.
Call me a bard,
And I'll sing you a tale.
Call me an angel,
And I'll guard you for life.
Call me a demon,
And I'll only bring strife.
Call me a liar,
And I'll weave you a web.
Call me a weapon
And I'll make you bleed.
Call me a temptress,
And I'll break your heart.
Call me a monster,
And I'll tear you apart.
Crystalline, fragile,
Like glass
Beating its rhythm,
Keeping me alive.
Bearing unbelievable strain,
Then shattering, with impossible speed,
Like glass.
Break it,
My heart, like glass,
Quick, clean, cracking.
Spiderwebs dance through,
Like glass,
And it shatters,
Like glass.
Be ready,
To pick up the pieces.
You broke it, my heart,
Like glass.
Maybe, sometimes,
You catch yourself
Thinking about me.
Maybe, sometimes,
You'll think about
My smile or laugh.
Maybe, sometimes,
You'll miss me,
And want to talk.
Maybe, sometimes,
I slip into
Your deepest dreams.
Maybe, sometimes,
You wish I
Could stay longer.
Maybe, sometimes,
You'll feel something
Much like what I do.
Maybe, sometimes,
You'll remember
I love you.
Open a door,
And they all flow in.
They're seeking the light.
Feel them dance
On your skin, in your hair.
Let them go.
They never
Hurt you.
Let them go.
Soft wings leave angel kisses
For us to feel.
Little legs carry fat bodies
Across us.
Let them go.
Cup them in your hand.
Let them go.
Why kill something so innocent?
They're not as pretty as butterflies,
Yet they do equal work.
Let them go.
Released into the night,
They climb, to the stars.
Let them go.
I wrote you some poems,
A romance, in verse.
A story of love
And sorrow, just words.
How pathetic am I
To tell you this tale
In rhyme and rhythm,
Where prose ever fails?
A romance, in verse,
Snares my fantasy.
It's sweetly tragic;
For it cannot be.
It's awfully sad,
To tell you the truth.
This story should be
Shouted from roofs.
My romance, in verse,
Like Juliet, Romeo,
Will not end well;
Your answer is no.
You have no need
For a romance in verse.
You have your love,
And to you, it's just words.
I think about you all the time,
You're constantly on my mind.
I'm not sure what to do,
And I wish I knew:
What is love?
Is it a white dove,
Or a passionate fire?
Is my heart a liar,
For telling me I want you?
Is this love? Is this love true?
Where others grew enraged,
You were patient, you were kind.
For you I shall smile
When I want to cry.
You told me I should smile,
That I should smile anyway,
And I will smile just for you,
Though I die each day.
You've never raised your voice at me,
And you've never turned your back.
So I will smile in return,
Until I finally crack.
I'm that kind of girl
Who will stare off into the dark,
Wishing for things I can never have.
I'm that kind of girl
Who can cry herself to sleep,
Then put on a smile and face the world.
I'm that kind of girl
Who will wait for you forever,
Knowing that waiting is all in vain.
I'm that kind of girl
Who prefers to wander alone,
To sort out her angry, screwed-up thoughts.
I'm that kind of girl
Who will stay up late, just to talk,
And to be there when she is needed.
I'm that kind of girl
Who will write a thousand love poems,
But never tell you that they're for you.
Why do I want
That which I cannot have?
That which I desire
Is not mine for the taking.
I have no chance,
Don't you understand?
And all I want
Is that which I can't have.
It gets more impossible
And I want more and more.
I don't know what to do
Or how to hide these feelings.
It's almost easier
If we hadn't ever met,
But then who
Would we both be now?
I'll be brutal,
I'll be ruthless,
Just so I'll survive.
I understand that kindness
Cannot keep us alive.
Break my tender heart again
And I won't even flinch.
For even the softest duckling's down
Turns rock-hard in a pinch.
A plate, once cracked,
Will break once more,
Of'n in the same place.
So I will turn and slam the door
Right in everyone's face.
Dare you challenge me?
I'll be harsh, make you bleed.
I'm brutal and ruthless
So I will survive.
Kindness cannot keep me alive.
Could you ever love me?
Would it be so hard?
Wait for pain, turn and see
The one who was always here.
Won't you just look,
And know that I'm still here?
It's my heart that you took,
And now I'm bleeding, bleeding out.
Turn for just one moment,
Turn away from her,
And read the message I just sent
Or just see that I'm here.
I know that I can't have you;
This fact is set in stone.
But won't you see, I'm still true?
Could you ever love me?
You are the sun to my moon,
The light to my shadow,
The fire to my ice,
And the sky to my ocean.
In short,
We can never touch,
Never be together,
Except for a brief, fleeting moment,
An eclipse,
Twilight,
And then we both pull away,
For that second is gone.
You and I cannot ever
Be together.
You have your day,
Your glow,
Your spark,
Your wind.
But I can never be that for you,
Though I wish with all my heart
That the moments were longer.
When breathing got harder,
When everything shattered,
You were there.
The current pulled me under,
But you were there,
By my side,
And you wouldn't let me die.
When I stumble and fall
You catch my hand
And pull me to my feet.
You shielded me from deadly thorns
That would have pierced so deep.
You pulled me out the first time,
And helped me close that door.
But now it's open, the demons crawl
To swallow me once more.
But you are here,
By my side,
And when it all becomes too hard,
I'll run to you and cry.
I desperately want to find a way
That I can pay you back,
But you want nothing in return,
So I give you this, to read today,
And remind you what you've done.
I fell into darkness,
And you brought me the sun.
Some think too much,
While the rest don't think at all.
I'm surrounded by total morons
And it drives me up the wall!
Everyone else is stuck in mud;
They all move oh so slow.
All I see are airheads
And my sanity just might go!
I am so sick of all these people
Who can't seem to think worth crap.
I hate everyone; they're idiots,
And I'm about to snap.
You turn around,
You walk away,
And don't you dare look back.
If you look back,
If you turn 'round,
You'll surely see me fall.
I will collapse,
I will lose it,
And you'll see me shatter.
Don't you look back,
You turn and run,
While I fall to my knees.
So in silence,
I let you go,
Even though it's killing me.
Everything is crumbling.
My world is crashing down
Around my head; my walls
Fall to the earth.
And I can do nothing.
I am powerless
Alone
Confused
Afraid
And I only want
To die,
Escape,
Fly away.
I don't know anymore
What to do or say.
I'm not sure who I am.
Every breath I take
Is careful, precise.
Inhale, exhale, repeat.
My shoulders tremble,
My hands shake,
But I won't let it show.
I've always known that when I break
Nobody can ever know.
I'll help you with your burden
I'll stand, straight and tall.
I'll keep the strain off you
And watch as my world falls.
My buildings are collapsing,
My temple is in ruins.
My city is on fire
And oh, how it burns.
What are you doing?
This is not something
With which I am familiar.
Why does my heart flutter so?
You're making my head spin,
My heart race,
My palms sweat;
What is this magic?
Do you even realize
What you do to me?
This is strange still,
And I'm not sure
What to say.
You're making me feel
All off inside,
Like something is wrong,
Yet so right.
Why continue to torment me so,
When you and I both know
This can't work?
How can I even look at you
Without feeling all of this shame?
You and I, me and you,
It just cannot be.
For you are
S
O
M
E
B
O
D
Y else's.
Oh the tragedy
Of that which can never be.
Who are you,
To challenge me?
Who are you,
To claim royalty?
Who are you,
To prevent my death?
Who are you,
To steal my breath?
Who are you,
To lock me up?
Who are you,
To fill my cup?
Who are you,
To watch me die?
Who are you,
To feed me lies?
Who are you,
To make me bleed?
Who are you,
To call me 'Queen'?
Who are you,
To say
That I am a Goddess,
That I'm a Queen?
When did I
Earn these titles?
I waltz with the night,
Under stars and moonlight.
Did you see?
Did you dare
To watch me?
Never holding back,
With black fire I dance.
Do you seek
To join me?
Come, take my hand.
Let shadows guide your steps,
And darkness be your song.
I'll lead you safe
Through the night,
Until we find
Soft sunlight.
Then I shall turn
And fade away.
I have no love
For the light of day.
I run; I run and hide,
From the demons deep inside.
I flee, and I don't look 'round,
For I'll see: blood stains the ground.
Shame for what I've done and said
Fills with monsters my young head.
I leave a dark and bloody wake;
I cannot look or I shall break.
I shall flee and I shall run
Until I chase down the black sun.
When I'm close to burning heat,
From agony I'll be released.
Guilt, regret, deep dark shame,
Coupled with unbearable pain.
Don't turn; you cannot see
What this all has done to me.
Am I an angel, one who's fallen?
Or am I a demon, like those within?
Am I a goddess? A kind, sweet queen?
Or am I a coward, never to be seen?
Don't you break, Little One.
I promise you
Will see the sun.
Don't let go, Little Child.
You must hold on
For a while.
Don't you cry,
Don't you die.
Don't you run,
Don't you hide.
Don't you break.
It's not time
For you,
Your last breath
To take.
Hearing your voice again
After silence, so long
Puts me in agony;
I sing a painful song.
Oh, can't you see?
Seeing your face again
For a moment, so brief,
Makes my heart break,
And fills me with grief.
I'll cry you a river, to fill you a lake.
I hope it won't happen again.
Just look what you've done.
You've managed to hook me,
And you're the first one.
How can this be?
Every love song
Has already been sung.
Every great story
Already written.
Every good life
Has already been lived.
And those left
Have already died.
Every fragile heart
Has already been broken.
Every sweet kiss
Already given.
Every epic saga
Has already been told.
Every last hero
Has already grown old.
Every crying voice
Has already been silenced.
Every ringing shout
Already cut off.
Already, they're gone.
The last to live, we are.
And everything
Is
Gone.
Red stains on white clouds,
Dripping from inside.
Impossible to halt;
An inevitable eventuality.
Tainting scarlet
The pure fluff,
Changing it to crimson.
Swirling, oily,
Sliding, oozy.
Never ceasing,
Cleansing failed.
To rinse clean the filth,
But not successful.
Time to begin again,
Another try.
I had a
Nosebleed.
In my bubble-bath.
If I ever hurt you,
Please let me know.
How can I fix it,
If it isn't so?
If I ever bother you,
Make sure I'm aware.
Let me know, I promise then
I'll get out of your hair.
If I ever let you down,
Just give me a shout.
Tell me your predicament,
And I will surely help you out.
If I ever break your heart,
I beg you, tell me now,
I can make it go away
If you tell me how.
Stop touching me.
Moron.
Can't you see I'm ticked off?
Stop poking me.
Jerk.
You know I hate being tickled.
Stop touching me!
I am death.
I am the night.
I am tears of small children.
Stoppit!
No pokey!
No touchy!
You know I don't like it.
It's funny, is it?
I'll show you funny.
Your brain splattered
On that wall!
I'm not great,
I'm not grand.
I only hold pain
In this hand.
I'm no hero,
I'm no god.
I'll get angry
If you prod.
I'm no leader,
I'm no queen.
I'm the scariest
You've ever seen.
I'm not tough.
I'm not proud.
I run and hide
From the crowds.
I'm not strong,
I'm not brave.
I'm a coward
In my cave.
I see your soul
In the dead of night.
I see your heart
With burning light.
I see your face,
Your frightened eyes.
I see right through
All of your lies.
I see your thoughts
That dance and quake.
I see your hands
That start to shake.
I see your sweat
Upon your brow.
I see you know
I've got you now.
I am She
Whose thunder shakes the earth.
I am She
Whose rage is to be feared.
I am She
Whose voice reaches stars.
I am She
Whose words leave marks.
I am She
Whose flame is intense.
I am She
Whose tears fall in silence.
I am She
Whose wings will protect.
I am She
Who's loosening the chain 'round your neck.
I am She
Whose sword will not shatter.
I am She
Whose fear shall not matter.
I am She
With wings of fire.
I am She
Who now grows tired.
You look at something,
Something amazing,
And think, "I wish I could do that."
But you put it off.
I'll do it tomorrow.
What are you thinking?
I'll help her tomorrow.
I'll clean this tomorrow.
I'll apologize tomorrow.
I'll go outside tomorrow.
I'll play around tomorrow.
I'll say something nice tomorrow.
I don't think you quite understand.
Eventually, tomorrow won't come.
You may not see the sunrise.
You'll run out of tomorrows.
So why not do it today?
Today is now.
Today is guaranteed.
And you never know when there are
No more tomorrows.
Words, exchanged,
After a long silence,
Are the best words of all.
Words, spoken,
After a long silence,
Are a gentle, healing balm.
Words, shared,
After a long silence,
Touch an anguished soul.
Words, given,
After a long silence,
Make our hearts full.
Words, exchanged,
After a long silence,
Delay the bell's toll.
Words, spoken,
After a long silence,
Give our heart-strings a pull.
Words, shared,
After a long silence,
Change what was dull.
Words, given,
After a long silence,
Make our barrier fall.
Young one,
Find your wings.
Spread them wide,
Kiss the sky.
Young one,
You can fly.
You must only
Try.
Reach to the clouds,
Young one,
Though they're far.
Spread your wings,
Smoothly glide.
Rise high.
High above this pit
Of agony, of pain.
Young one,
Carry yourself
Away
From this place.
Go now,
While you are still strong.
Young one,
Find your wings.
Spread them wide.
Kiss the sky.
There are Secrets in my heart.
Buried deep,
Too deep,
For me to ever speak of them.
My Secrets are my own,
They make me who I am.
They change who I'll be.
I want to open them,
To share them,
To tell you.
But I cannot, for then,
Then,
They wouldn't be Secrets.
I can never tell you all of my Secrets.
The Secrets in my heart,
But I can tell you one
Or two
Or three.
Perhaps.
Maybe.
Later.
Seeking for a handhold.
A safety rope.
While climbing up a cliff-face
As slick as soap.
Seeking for a light
To illuminate
All that's ahead
And reveal my fate.
Seeking for a blade
To lash out at my foes,
I will pull them down with me
Amidst my deathly throes.
Seeking for a flame
To burn away my sin.
Scorch it, chase it
Cleanse me from within.
The touch of a heart
Is powerful
Is real
Is soft
Is quiet.
The touch of a heart
Is kind
Is loving
Is tender
Is sweet.
The touch of a heart cannot be faked.
It means I Love You.
It means I Care.
It means Don't Go.
It means I Will Be Here.
It means Keep Me Safe.
It means I Trust You.
Never touch a heart
If you intend to break it.
Never chase a heart
To try to touch it.
If you touch a heart
You may never know.
If a heart touches you
You may never know.
If two hearts touch each other
Then it's called True Love.
If a heart runs away
Don't risk hurting it.
If you hurt a heart
Don't try to hide.
I hope you feel
The touch of a heart.
Sweet dreams, sweet dreams.
Pleasant thoughts, sweet dreams.
Deep sleep, sweet dreams,
For you I wish all these things.
Sweet dreams, sweet dreams,
Happy heart, sweet dreams.
Peaceful rest, sweet dreams.
For you I wish all these things.
Sweet dreams, sweet dreams,
Warm bed, sweet dreams.
Sleepy soul, sweet dreams.
For you I wish all these things.
Sweet dreams. Sweet dreams.
What does one need
At the end of the day,
When there's nothing to do
And nothing to say?
What does one want
At the end of a race,
When they might have gained pride
Or only lost face?
Throughout the day
When my mask is on,
I bury deep
My soul's sad song.
When the starlight slides
Through my bedroom window,
If you're watching,
The truth you'll know.
At the end of the day,
When my energy's spent,
What do I need
When my heart's so bent?
At the end of the day
Someone to hold me tight.
I only need someone
To say, "You'll be all right."
What does one need
At the end of the day,
When there's nothing to do
And nothing to say?
No, I am not okay.
Yes, I am upset.
Yes, something's wrong.
No, you cannot help.
No, I don't want to talk about it.
Yes, there is a problem.
Yes, I want to die.
No, I am not 'fine.'
No, I am not happy.
Yes, I am angry.
Yes, I'm in agony.
No, I won't let you see.
But if you ask,
Then I will tell you:
That I'm okay,
That I'm content,
That everything is fine,
That there's no need for help,
That there's nothing to talk about,
That nothing's wrong,
That I'm enjoying life,
That I'm fine,
That I'm happy,
That I'm calm,
That there's no pain,
That there's nothing to see.
I think I might be broken.
It's sad, but it is true.
I think it may be possible
That I'm really shattered and blue.
Happiness seems far away,
And I'm not quite sure why.
Everything has all gone gray,
Just like a stormy sky.
I think that I'm in pain,
But I have been left numb
By agony and fear so great
They scarred and struck me dumb.
I never asked for all of this,
But it's what I've been dealt.
My hand of cards is not so great,
And there's so much that I've felt.
What is A Wall for?
What indeed?
Well,
Walls seem to all
Lean on each other
Without much help.
Walls block out wind
And rain
And lots of other unpleasant stuff.
Walls are pretty friendly.
They don't get offended easily,
And they're pretty polite.
Some Walls are really
Really
Weird.
While others at least seem
To be relatively normal.
Walls are all unique.
Some are fancy.
Some are plain.
Some are funny.
Some are snarky.
Some are
Really
Really
Geeky.
But the best darn thing,
Oh yes, the best,
The best thing about Walls
Is that
Sometimes
When you get tired, and
When you aren't okay
You can usually find a Wall.
Walls are strong.
Walls don't mind if you
Need to lean on them for a bit.
That's what Walls are for.
A terrible trembling tremor,
A sinister shivering shake,
And
A quick quivering quake.
Step closer.
Closer.
Closer.
It's not that far.
I promise.
You'll be okay.
Jump.
No.
Jump.
No.
Too scared?
Yes.
That's okay.
Fear
Keeps us
Alive.
Jump.
You'll be okay.
Promise?
Promise.
Here I go. 3...2...1...
.
.
.
I can't.
Yes you can.
Can I?
Yes.
Jump.
Okay.
Now?
Now.
Boing, whish, splash!
You did it!
It wasn't that far.
You were right.
This is my Prayer
To my Father above.
This is my Story
Of pain, loss, and love.
This is my Path
That I must walk alone.
This is my Light
That once, so brightly, shone.
This is my Pain
In my broken heart.
This is my Demon
Who lurks in the dark.
This is my Weakness
So small, yet so big.
This is my Burden
That snaps me like a twig.
This is my Tear
That falls without shame.
This is my Punishment,
For I am to blame.
This is my Pleasure,
My saving grace.
This is my Wit
To bring a smile to your face.
This is my Prayer,
My cry to my God.
This is my Story,
Laid bare, no longer shod.
Why is it that the only time
The darkness comes
And overwhelms me
Is when there's no-one there
To tell me everything's okay?
Why is it that the weight
Is so heavy
And breaks me
When nobody is there
To help me lift?
Why is it that the Demons
Only strike
To consume me
When nobody is there
To guard my back?
Why is it that I'm only lost
When nobody is there
To show me the way
Back
Home?
(For the same friend)
Give me a reason to live,
A reason to breathe.
Give me a reason to stay afloat
In my tumultuous sea.
A reason, a reason,
That I can do.
The first one?
I love you.
The sun will rise tomorrow,
In fire and flaming light.
You'll be alive tomorrow,
And your future is oh so bright.
The wind on your face,
The breeze in your hair.
Clear, cool water,
Crisp, fresh air.
Soft pillows,
Small children's sweet smiles.
Loud laughter
Echoing for miles.
Rich milk chocolate,
Cake, sugar, cream.
Friends to cry on,
To support when you lean.
Kittens and puppies,
And little birds too,
But the best of all?
The people who love you.
(For a friend)
All the birds gathered
Together one day,
To hear the words
That God would say.
"You all have your gifts,"
He said with a smile,
"And I want you to use them,
In rough weather and mild."
First the great Eagle,
With his magnificent wings,
Flies way up high.
And the Songbird? She sings.
The Crane and the Heron,
With legs very long,
Waltz in the water
To the Chickadee's song.
The lovely Robin,
With her ruby breast,
Listens for worms
To bring home to her nest.
One by one each bird flew away,
Except a few who could not.
"Ostrich, Emu, Cassowary,"
God said, "don't fret.
You can run! Fast, you are very!"
But one bird was left alone,
With his tiny webbed feet.
"Father," piped Penguin,
"Did you forget about me?"
The Father looked down
At the last feathered one,
And thought hard what to do.
"You can't fly, you can't run."
While God was thinking,
Penguin waddled away,
He was very sad,
And it was not a good day.
Penguin wandered off
And found a tall cliff.
"Nobody loves me,"
He said with a sniff.
God came running,
But He was too late,
For little Penguin
Had decided his fate.
"I'm sorry, Father!" Penguin called.
"But I cannot fly!
I am not wanted,
So I'll jump and I'll die!"
God looked at the edge,
And the sea down below,
"He has a talent,
What is it? I know!"
Penguin had jumped,
Perhaps on a whim,
"Penguin! You can't fly,"
God said, "But you can swim!"
Penguin COULD swim,
And as he fell down,
He realized that maybe
He wouldn't drown.
You see, Duck swims too,
But Penguin's the best,
No other bird
Has such lungs in their chest.
Maybe this story
Is a tangle of words,
And maybe to you,
It's just about birds.
But maybe you'll look
And maybe you'll see
The message to you
Whispered from me.
Maybe you can't fly.
Maybe you can't run.
But you have a talent,
I know, at least one.
You're special, you know.
God made you that way.
You might not know yet,
But you will, someday.
Don't you give up,
Despair shouldn't win.
Maybe you are simply
Like our friend Penguin.
The end isn't near,
You are the best at something,
And you'll find out what it is
If you don't jump, you wonderful thing.
When the snow falls,
Gliding through the quiet winter night,
It glistens, it sparkles,
Coating everything in brilliant white.
When the trees groan,
Underneath the quiet snowfall's weight,
Do the stars dance?
Do the children all go eat soft flakes?
Wind is racing;
The frost nips at a small pink nose.
We are sliding,
Can't you see how fast it goes?
We are bundled
Up in layers of nice winter coats.
We are sailing
Down the hill on simple snow-sea boats.
And the snowflakes,
Drifting through the quiet winter night?
They are dancing,
Making such a beautiful, frozen sight.
I like long walks in the forest,
I like to be the only one home.
I like the deep darkness of nighttime,
I like to play games on my own.
I like to write stories and read them,
I like it when I'm alone.
I like deep silence and solitude,
I like to wander and hike alone.
I like thick snowfall and gentle peace,
I like to watch raging lightning storms.
I like to work on my own.
I like to take care of myself,
I like it when I rule my home
But then I turn around,
And then I really see
The world moves on when I'm alone.
The people move on without me.
And finally I realize the truth:
I like to be alone, but don't fancy 'lonely.'
Facebook, Twitter, Instagram,
In a lotta networks, I am.
Fandom here and fandom there,
Plus stalkers who won't get outta my hair.
Google Plus and Xbox Live,
Bustling 'bout the social hive.
No Tumblr and no Pinterest.
For me those hold no interest.
I have so many I don't need more,
Stack them on and I'll topple to the floor.
I already waste so much time.
So many accounts; at least nine!
Don't you see how hard it is,
To keep track of all those friends lists?
(Today someone asked me what love is; this was my response.)
Love is
When
You care about someone else's happiness
More than your own.
Love is
When
A sibling steals your chocolate every day
And you keep it in the same place.
Love is
When
You are willing to experience so much pain
So they don't have to.
Love is
When
You first worry about their needs
Before your own.
Love is
When
You are willing to compromise and understand
To make their life easier.
Love is
When
You share a special connection, understanding,
And mutual respect.
Love is
When
Your heart beats as fast as it can in euphoria
But can still feel sad together.
Love is
When
You don't want to, but are still willing
To let go.
Love is
When
Two friends who care about one another
Don't care what the world thinks.
Love is
When
Two people who want to be together forever
Join hands for strength.
Love is
When
You fall into tears on someone else's shoulder
And they tell you "It's all right."
Love is
When
Two people who really care fight together
To keep what they have.
I'm coming.
Through the rain,
Through the storm.
I'm coming.
I'm running.
Over mountains,
Over canyons.
I'm running.
I'm fleeing.
From my story,
From my pain.
I'm fleeing.
I'm cutting.
Through the brambles,
Through the rocks.
I'm cutting.
I'm racing.
Through the forest,
Through the river.
I'm racing.
I'm climbing.
Up the cliff-face,
Up the walls.
I'm climbing.
I'm flying.
Above the sky,
Above the seas.
I'm flying.
I'm dancing.
In the field,
In the valley.
I'm dancing.
I'm coming.
Through the shadows,
Through the light.
I'm coming.
Coming home.
I'm not giving in.
I'm not giving up.
I'm not giving out.
You aren't worth it anymore.
You aren't willing to forgive.
You aren't helping me heal.
They are comforting me.
They are forgiving of me.
They are appreciative of me.
So tell me why I should try.
So tell me why you hurt me.
So tell me why I shouldn't turn around and leave.
You can't?
You won't?
You don't know?
So tell me what I should do.
So tell me why I should stay.
So tell me why you're letting these memories die.
I thought you were special.
I thought you actually cared.
I thought you'd stay forever.
I
Thought
Wrong
Paint me red,
With blood and pain.
Paint me red,
In rose-leaf rain.
Paint me red,
With crimson deep,
Paint me red,
Before I sleep.
Paint me red,
With burning fire.
Paint me red,
You foolish liar.
Paint me red,
With sunset sky.
Paint me red,
Before we die.
Paint me red,
With tender lips.
Paint me red,
With needle tips.
Paint me red,
Fire, blood, and flower.
Paint me red,
It's our last hour.
Try me,
Try to beat me,
Try to defeat and break me.
Bring me down,
Break me down,
Shatter me, I dare you.
I'd like to see you try,
But you might just die.
How can you try again
When I'll whip you once again?
I am stronger
I am faster
I am smarter
And I am deadly.
Come at me, I dare you.
Throttle me, I dare you.
Push me far, I dare you.
Challenge me, I dare you,
Face me down, I dare you.
I'm not cruel nor merciless.
But you'll be another victory.
Another victory for me.
A little twinkle in your eye,
A flash of mischief, teasing lie.
Blue as water, daytime, ice.
Take our chances, roll the dice.
A breath, a gasp, a sleek sly grin.
A snicker, hidden, deep within.
Never know what's coming next,
Probably a one-word text.
Those you haven't seen awhile,
Make you laugh and make you smile.
Rings like a bell
The cheerful sound.
I can always tell
When my friend's around.
Her sparkling eyes
Dance and shine.
Hear her joyous cries?
I'm glad she's mine.
I love to hear her laugh;
It makes me smile.
She's like my other half
And she's got grace and style.
I try to reach out to you
But I just get lashed.
I trusted you, believed you,
Yet you dumped me like trash.
I still care for you inside.
Though you kick me and beat me,
And it's killing me inside.
I don't know if you see.
Tell me what I did, please,
Tell me what I said.
How can I fix it, please,
Heal my heart and head.
I sacrificed so much for you.
And you threw it all away.
I wrote a thousand poems for you,
Now I don't know what to say.
If you'd tell me what happened,
It might help the pain.
I don't know what happened,
And my tears fall like rain.
When you first meet someone,
You might not think that you
Could care so much for them.
When you first meet someone,
You don't think that you could fall,
That they could steal your heart.
When you first meet someone,
You don't realize how much you
Could miss them, whether lover or friend.
I just barely saw you,
And I already miss you.
What is going on inside?
What's this feeling deep inside?
I tried to make you notice me
But you hardly even looked at me.
Why do I even care if you do?
What's this joy I feel when you do?
I might be going crazy,
Or maybe we're all crazy,
But why do you make my heart beat
Such a fast, fast, faster beat?
I've never cared what anyone thought
Of me. Never gave it a thought.
Why do you mean so much?
Why do I care so much?
I try so hard to meet your gaze
But to you it's like I'm not even there.
I don't really think you notice me,
Or even notice my gentle stare.
I've been watching you,
Every time you're around me.
Either you're just pretending,
Or you really can't see.
But now since we danced
I can't get you off my mind.
I can't sleep any more
And I think of you all the time.
Yet it might just be easier
If I didn't exist.
But you've got me trapped dear
Though I writhe and I twist.
You make me feel a way I've never felt,
A strange tingly pleasant feeling.
I didn't even know I had a heart,
But you found it deep inside me.
I had locked it, thought to keep it safe.
Buried it, hidden it, far away.
It was hurting and painful and broken and chafed,
But you simply touched it and all that was gone.
Maybe I should stop
But I really don't want to.
There are so many words
To be said about you.
Though the hour grows late,
There's a thought in the night.
A thought that keeps me awake.
This thought hurts and burns with fierce light.
A memory of what you said to me.
Take me, hold me,
Don't let go.
If you want me,
Let me know.
Save me, keep me,
Hold me tight.
Can't you hold me
Through the night?
Look, you hurt me,
Broke my heart.
But I still want your
Light and dark.
How could you make me
Feel this way?
You're on my mind both
Night and day.
