What I Feel

If you could feel what I feel,
I suppose you'd understand
What it's like to have fire and ice
Inside your heart, inside your head.
If you could feel what I feel,
You'd finally grasp the idea
That opposites can coexist,
Though it's not exactly peaceful.
If you could feel what I feel,
You could also know
Why I say the things I say
And do the things I do.
If you could feel what I feel,
You'd feel a broken heart,
But a strong, enduring one,
Though you think it impossible.
If you could feel what I feel,
You'd understand the pain
Of fighting a battle eternally,
A battle you cannot win.
If you could feel what I feel,
And stand as long as I have,
I'd hold you close as you broke,
And apologize a thousand times.
If you could feel what I feel
I'd never forgive myself,
Because no human being
Should need to feel as I do.