Unsent Letter No. 1

It's been awhile,
Old friend.
It's been quite some time
Since you tore me apart.
I know it was partially my fault,
But I didn't deserve it.
We both know that.

If I could bring myself to hate you
For what you did,
I would,
But, honestly, I have so many memories
Of myself with you,
And I'd like those to stay untainted.

It's been so long;
You've changed so much.
What happened to that spirit of yours?
I thought it was impossible to tame you,
But it seems I was wrong.
I didn't know they could break you.

I can't hate you,
But I don't think I want you back, either.
The soul I loved is gone now,
And you're just an empty husk.
I'm not asking for forgiveness;
I'm not confessing anything.
I'm simply telling you
That I can't hate you.

I don't really know how I feel.
How could I love you anymore?
I've recovered from the pain,
The agony you caused.
But I'd like to keep those memories,
If you don't mind,
Because I know you were great once.

Best regards.