Is This Love?

I think about you all the time,
You're constantly on my mind.
I'm not sure what to do,
And I wish I knew:
What is love?
Is it a white dove,
Or a passionate fire?
Is my heart a liar,
For telling me I want you?
Is this love? Is this love true?

Smile

Where others grew enraged,
You were patient, you were kind.
For you I shall smile
When I want to cry.

You told me I should smile,
That I should smile anyway,
And I will smile just for you,
Though I die each day.

You've never raised your voice at me,
And you've never turned your back.
So I will smile in return,
Until I finally crack.

Kind of Girl

      I'm that kind of girl
Who will stare off into the dark,
Wishing for things I can never have.
      I'm that kind of girl
Who can cry herself to sleep,
Then put on a smile and face the world.
      I'm that kind of girl
Who will wait for you forever,
Knowing that waiting is all in vain.
      I'm that kind of girl
Who prefers to wander alone,
To sort out her angry, screwed-up thoughts.
      I'm that kind of girl
Who will stay up late, just to talk,
And to be there when she is needed.
      I'm that kind of girl
Who will write a thousand love poems,
But never tell you that they're for you.

What I Can't Have

Why do I want
That which I cannot have?
That which I desire
Is not mine for the taking.
I have no chance,
Don't you understand?
And all I want
Is that which I can't have.
It gets more impossible
And I want more and more.
I don't know what to do
Or how to hide these feelings.
It's almost easier
If we hadn't ever met,
But then who
Would we both be now?

Brutal

I'll be brutal,
I'll be ruthless,
Just so I'll survive.
I understand that kindness
Cannot keep us alive.
Break my tender heart again
And I won't even flinch.
For even the softest duckling's down
Turns rock-hard in a pinch.
A plate, once cracked,
Will break once more,
Of'n in the same place.
So I will turn and slam the door
Right in everyone's face.
Dare you challenge me?
I'll be harsh, make you bleed.
I'm brutal and ruthless
So I will survive.
Kindness cannot keep me alive.

Could You Ever Love Me?

Could you ever love me?
Would it be so hard?
Wait for pain, turn and see
The one who was always here.

Won't you just look,
And know that I'm still here?
It's my heart that you took,
And now I'm bleeding, bleeding out.

Turn for just one moment,
Turn away from her,
And read the message I just sent
Or just see that I'm here.

I know that I can't have you;
This fact is set in stone.
But won't you see, I'm still true?
Could you ever love me?

Opposites

You are the sun to my moon,
The light to my shadow,
The fire to my ice,
And the sky to my ocean.
In short,
We can never touch,
Never be together,
Except for a brief, fleeting moment,
An eclipse,
Twilight,
And then we both pull away,
For that second is gone.
You and I cannot ever
Be together.
You have your day,
Your glow,
Your spark,
Your wind.
But I can never be that for you,
Though I wish with all my heart
That the moments were longer.

Thank You

When breathing got harder,
When everything shattered,
You were there.
The current pulled me under,
But you were there,
By my side,
And you wouldn't let me die.
When I stumble and fall
You catch my hand
And pull me to my feet.
You shielded me from deadly thorns
That would have pierced so deep.
You pulled me out the first time,
And helped me close that door.
But now it's open, the demons crawl
To swallow me once more.
But you are here,
By my side,
And when it all becomes too hard,
I'll run to you and cry.
I desperately want to find a way
That I can pay you back,
But you want nothing in return,
So I give you this, to read today,
And remind you what you've done.
I fell into darkness,
And you brought me the sun.

Surrounded by Idiots

Some think too much,
While the rest don't think at all.
I'm surrounded by total morons
And it drives me up the wall!

Everyone else is stuck in mud;
They all move oh so slow.
All I see are airheads
And my sanity just might go!

I am so sick of all these people
Who can't seem to think worth crap.
I hate everyone; they're idiots,
And I'm about to snap.

Don't Look Back

You turn around,
You walk away,
And don't you dare look back.
If you look back,
If you turn 'round,
You'll surely see me fall.
I will collapse,
I will lose it,
And you'll see me shatter.
Don't you look back,
You turn and run,
While I fall to my knees.
So in silence,
I let you go,
Even though it's killing me.

Collapse

Everything is crumbling.
My world is crashing down
Around my head; my walls
Fall to the earth.
And I can do nothing.
I am powerless
Alone
Confused
Afraid
And I only want
To die,
Escape,
Fly away.
I don't know anymore
What to do or say.
I'm not sure who I am.
Every breath I take
Is careful, precise.
Inhale, exhale, repeat.
My shoulders tremble,
My hands shake,
But I won't let it show.
I've always known that when I break
Nobody can ever know.
I'll help you with your burden
I'll stand, straight and tall.
I'll keep the strain off you
And watch as my world falls.
My buildings are collapsing,
My temple is in ruins.
My city is on fire
And oh, how it burns.

What Are You Doing?

What are you doing?
This is not something
With which I am familiar.
Why does my heart flutter so?
You're making my head spin,
My heart race,
My palms sweat;
What is this magic?
Do you even realize
What you do to me?
This is strange still,
And I'm not sure
What to say.
You're making me feel
All off inside,
Like something is wrong,
Yet so right.
Why continue to torment me so,
When you and I both know
This can't work?
How can I even look at you
Without feeling all of this shame?
You and I, me and you,
It just cannot be.
For you are
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                     Y      else's.

Oh the tragedy
Of that which can never be.

Who Are You?

Who are you,
To challenge me?
Who are you,
To claim royalty?
Who are you,
To prevent my death?
Who are you,
To steal my breath?
Who are you,
To lock me up?
Who are you,
To fill my cup?
Who are you,
To watch me die?
Who are you,
To feed me lies?
Who are you,
To make me bleed?
Who are you,
To call me 'Queen'?

Mistress of Shadows

Who are you,
To say
That I am a Goddess,
That I'm a Queen?
When did I
Earn these titles?
I waltz with the night,
Under stars and moonlight.
Did you see?
Did you dare
To watch me?
Never holding back,
With black fire I dance.
Do you seek
To join me?
Come, take my hand.
Let shadows guide your steps,
And darkness be your song.
I'll lead you safe
Through the night,
Until we find
Soft sunlight.
Then I shall turn
And fade away.
I have no love
For the light of day.