Still A Mother

(For my mom, who had a hysterectomy due to many problems)

There was something inside,
Killing you,
Slowly, over many years.
But still you persisted,
You fought.
But the time ran out,
And you couldn't fight anymore.
The doctor saved your life,
But he took away something else.

Don't you worry;
No more children will gain life in your womb,
But the ones you already had
Are still here.
You're still a mother,
And maybe there's a child,
Somewhere, from a different womb,
That needs the love of your heart.
The love, which has nurtured five,
Five tough, clever babies.
Don't forget them.
Don't forget.
You're still a mother.

Sweet Summer Storm

Raindrops on hollyhocks,
And flashes of lightning,
Coupled with sheets of rain;
Some say it's frightening.
Take a look and see,
The sights of a sweet summer storm.

Crackles of thunder,
And large raindrops pounding,
Chirps of the birds seeking shelter;
Splashes of the puddles surrounding.
Open your ear and hear,
The sounds of a sweet summer storm.

Breathe fresh, clean air,
And petrichor--Rain on the dust,
Flowers who've now opened,
The dog races in, carrying his heavy musk.
Take a deep breath and smell,
The scents of a sweet summer storm.

Rain-flavored raspberries,
And air, freshly cleaned,
Rainwater running down your face,
And more, all unseen.
Open your mouth and taste,
Flavors of a sweet summer storm.

Slight sting of a heavy drop,
And the cling of your clothes,
A chilled, new breeze,
And the wet grass on your toes.
Reach out your hand and feel,
The touch of a sweet summer storm.

Just A Dream

I dreamed a dream,
That spoke my heart's desire.
I dreamed a dream,
Filled with my passion's fire.
I dreamed a dream;
My head is such a liar.
I dreamed a dream,
A dream of love and light,
I dreamed a dream,
Where demons couldn't bite.
I dreamed a dream,
But it left me in the night.
For it was just a dream,
Just a dream.

I dreamed a dream,
My friend, yes, you were there.
I dreamed a dream,
And I will stand and stare.
I dreamed this dream,
On my heart's crazy dare.
I dreamed a dream,
Where I had found a home.
I dreamed a dream,
That I can call my own.
I dreamed a dream,
And I wasn't so alone.
But it was just a dream,
Just a dream.

I dreamed a dream,
That pulled me from this living Hell.
I dreamed a dream,
Whose secrets I can't tell.
I dreamed a dream,
Where I heard a ringing bell.
I dreamed a dream,
Where you loved me true.
I dreamed a dream,
Where I had life anew,
I dreamed a dream,
But now, where are you?
For it was just a dream,
Just a dream.

Don't Like Me

If you don't like me,
That's o-kay,
'Cause I don't like "me" either.
I'm loud and sad
And crazy mad
All at the same time.
I wallow in depression,
Plagued by anxiety.
Top it off with OCD
(And I think I might have ADD!)
If you don't like me,
That's just fine!
If you do,
Just give me time.
I'll tick you off
(Like I did everybody else)
And then you'll wonder
Why you kept me around.
I don't mean to do it,
I swear on my life!
It just kinda happens,
And I only bring strife.
So if you don't like me,
I'll forgive you.
Because I don't even like "me"
I promise, it's true.

But I Didn't

It would be easy,
I thought,
In the pool.
One breath
Could bring quiet death.
But I didn't;
It'd tear you apart,
And I couldn't hurt you--
I'd break my own heart.

It would be quick,
I thought,
Leaning over the edge.
One crack
And I'd never come back.
But I didn't;
I thought of how you'd cry.
And I couldn't hurt you--
It'd be worse than if I died.

It would be simple,
I thought,
A blade in my hand.
One swift slice,
So smooth and nice.
But I didn't;
I knew you'd finally fall,
And I couldn't hurt you--
Not like that at all.

My Thundering Angel

My thundering angel,
From the heavens you dive,
With your wings like lightning,
Bringing you to my side.

With a crack that shakes the earth,
You slay my enemies,
And I am here beside you;
We make the best team.

My thundering angel,
Shaking earth and sky,
We'll conquer this world,
Together, you and I.

Though you're far away,
It feels as if you're near.
Oh, my thundering angel,
How I wish you were here.

Separated by an hour,
And miles of meter sticks,
My silly heart has succumbed
To your clever tricks.

My thundering angel,
You can be so frightening.
But I need you dearly,
So come on wings of lightning.