I cannot bring myself to sleep
For fear I don't wake up,
Yet I can't bear another hour
Alone here with my thoughts.
I fear the sound of my own breath,
Sitting here in silence,
Yet there is no release in death
Nor in the endless violence.
I'm trapped within my own damn head
But say that I'm okay;
Maybe if I repeat the lie,
It will be true one day.
My soul is tearing at my chest
Not knowing where to go,
Chasing a high that passed me by
And left me in the low.
I curse the burdens that I bear
And seek a cheap escape,
But I know I can't break your heart,
And so, I'll fight my fate.
I'll tell you that I'm doing fine -
Maybe you'll believe it -
But deep inside, it is a lie,
And I wish I believed it.
