Feb 3, 2019

Unsent Letter No. 5

How dare you blame me
That you didn't get this spot.
I know you wanted it,
Probably more than I did,
But how dare you call it my fault.

Was it my fault you overburdened yourself?
Was it my fault you pushed way too hard?
Was it my fault that you didn't listen
When I said you need to take some time off?
Was it my fault you burned out?
Was it my fault you bombed a test?

I love you, I do,
But sometimes I'm angry
That it's "my fault" you didn't make it.
I know you feel
Like I didn't try as hard.
Like I didn't put in the effort.
Maybe I did, maybe I didn't.
But what does it matter?

I told you to care for yourself.
I warned you that you'd hit a wall.
And somehow,
This is all my fault.
All my fault for being right.

Best regards.